No Hope

no house to go home to
I've burned it down
no family to love
I've scared them away
no friends
I've broken them all
no tears left
they've all been shed
no dreams to be had
they've all been  distorted  
no hope to hold to
there is no where left to go
no life to live
depression has consumed me



you should eat potatos
~ricky

Sleepless

four years
speechless silence
presence of hatred
becomes a grain of sand
stuck in the throat
causing pain to every breathe
everything is turning in to regret
when all is forgotten but
the miracle of life
perhaps...
will be a prayer to
the stars
and a thought of what could have been
will remain as a
burden inside the chambers
of the heart
so many reasons to dream
yet
no reason to sleep

Roses are Red, Violets are Blue

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I want to kill myself
Because I miss you

I told you my secrets
Everything was okay
Until that one fateful day
We worked things out
But they were never the same
It's upsetting to find
I was only a piece of your game
Now I don't matter
You must be broken
For you haven't heard
A single word I've said
So I'll sit behind you
And watch you walk away
With me feeling hurt
With no will to stay
But I will always be here
Just in case you need me
But what would you need me for
When you have a whole world to see
That's complete without me

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Call me crazy
But I'll always love you

cut me open
kill me dead
get these rhythms
out of my head
hush the screams
kill the silence 
get rid of all the violence
rage is growing thick
kill me now do it quick
echo my actions
echo my thoughts
the pain
is growing hot
hope that i die
if it doesn't end now
you'll know why

watching the world change
everything that was will never be 
a stupid cause
with a dreaded effect
forever hated by life
nothing left to want
nothing left to leave
everything keeps getting worse
just plain sick of it
everything gets better
the shit gets worse
and it will keep getting worse
until you take away the chance to let it get worse

Fallen Hard For You

i've slipped down your rabbit whole
i've fallen i've smallened
behind you looking glass
you've won darling
but as far as i can tell
love has been consumed
i'm lost in your forest
of slithy toves
and momeraths
and jabberwocky lips
shall you slay thine jabberwock
awaken shall i
before the morn
to pull you back to me
to play the single card of the wicked red queen
to run from life
mind slowly fading as if taken by the hatter of mad
as if under the wing of the hookah smoking caterpillar
telling thou to find oneself
yet so easy
yet so hard
to defeat the precious jabberwock
to settle a long time feud
of two selves fighting to become one
it started with a simple root
sticking up from the ground
and a fuzzy white rabbit just wanting to be loved

An Ode to Halloween

***a little late for halloween***


I am the darkness under your bed,
I am the voices inside your head,
I am the darkness in your soul,
I am the head in the candy bowl,
I am the shadow creeping ‘cross your floor,
I am “that man” you saw in the store,
I am the shadows dancing on the wall,
In the attic is where I crawl,
I am the chills that tickle your back,
I am groans and creeks and cracks,
I am the skeleton hung from the door,
I am the rat that scurries cross the floor,
I am the clouds that cover the moon,
I am the rock you trip over in the gloom,
I am the cat the runs in front of your car,
I am the light that’s not the stars.
I am the car you saw in the town,
Crushed, wheels spinning, up-side down,
I am the noises you here in the night,
I am icy fingers, you scream in fright.
I am the dead animal you saw on the highway,
I am the rain that runs down your driveway,
I am the lies that haunt your heart,
I am the fright that has yet to start.
I am your bruises, black and blue,
And I am the evil inside of you.