watching the world change
everything that was will never be 
a stupid cause
with a dreaded effect
forever hated by life
nothing left to want
nothing left to leave
everything keeps getting worse
just plain sick of it
everything gets better
the shit gets worse
and it will keep getting worse
until you take away the chance to let it get worse

Fallen Hard For You

i've slipped down your rabbit whole
i've fallen i've smallened
behind you looking glass
you've won darling
but as far as i can tell
love has been consumed
i'm lost in your forest
of slithy toves
and momeraths
and jabberwocky lips
shall you slay thine jabberwock
awaken shall i
before the morn
to pull you back to me
to play the single card of the wicked red queen
to run from life
mind slowly fading as if taken by the hatter of mad
as if under the wing of the hookah smoking caterpillar
telling thou to find oneself
yet so easy
yet so hard
to defeat the precious jabberwock
to settle a long time feud
of two selves fighting to become one
it started with a simple root
sticking up from the ground
and a fuzzy white rabbit just wanting to be loved

An Ode to Halloween

***a little late for halloween***


I am the darkness under your bed,
I am the voices inside your head,
I am the darkness in your soul,
I am the head in the candy bowl,
I am the shadow creeping ‘cross your floor,
I am “that man” you saw in the store,
I am the shadows dancing on the wall,
In the attic is where I crawl,
I am the chills that tickle your back,
I am groans and creeks and cracks,
I am the skeleton hung from the door,
I am the rat that scurries cross the floor,
I am the clouds that cover the moon,
I am the rock you trip over in the gloom,
I am the cat the runs in front of your car,
I am the light that’s not the stars.
I am the car you saw in the town,
Crushed, wheels spinning, up-side down,
I am the noises you here in the night,
I am icy fingers, you scream in fright.
I am the dead animal you saw on the highway,
I am the rain that runs down your driveway,
I am the lies that haunt your heart,
I am the fright that has yet to start.
I am your bruises, black and blue,
And I am the evil inside of you.

tired of trying
sick of crying
i may be smiling
but inside 
i'm dying

you left me with a knife through my heart
and a gun to my head just waiting to pull the trigger

i have the sudden urge to cry
and i'm pretty sure you're the reason why
before you i never shed a single tear
even with all the reasons there were
you were always by side to make me forget
but now you've forgotten me
with a silent unexplained good bye
if only you really knew
that most of these poems are simply about you